strong but weak, weak but strong

Hellow all,

my mood today is not that great.. Tadi di sunday school, i had a lil trouble. Sebagai ketua natal kali ini, gw pikir, gw sudah membuat suatu sistem yang akan mengurangi hal-hal yang akan membuat rekan kerja gw sakit hati atau kecil hati ataupun sedih hati.. Gw udah buat suatu sistem yang ternyata tidak bisa berjalan dgn baik krn satu dan lain hal. Tapi gw pikir gag apa-apa krn toh gw masih bisa menangani semuanya itu dengan baik, so far, with the help from God and my secretary

howeveer, i never thought (crying hard rite now), that those things (kecil hati, sedih hati, sakit hati) could actually be happen to me... The crying that i prevent would happen this year to the christmas committee, would be happening to me....

Luckily, i still have kak emms to back me up today since i dont know what else to say or do, i was and am very very weak today and tonight.. I had a hug from kak emms today, and i would love to have a big hug again tonight just to make me strong again. I guess i have to be happy with just me now. The pressure is gettin higher, i am strong, but i am weak, i am weak, but i am strong

i could do this..alone..
I could face this..alone..
Just like i used to these past years